16 Feb, 11


16 feb, 11

As my sister commented not long ago, when you submit yourself to the hospital, you submit yourself to other’s 5 to 6 day workweek.  It goes without saying that having these institutions helps all of us recover off the injured list hopefully getting back to playing vitally healthy in the game of life.  It’s just good to keep things in perspective that when in a hospital, besides owning our own pain, there is a good chance we become someone else’s (back side) pain. It shouldn’t be that way, but that may be an unfair comment to those that give their time genuinely.

One challenge is logistics.  On Monday I had to go down to the radiation oncology floor to get x-rays of the mouth so they knew how to order the lead strips.  In the evening, because I’ve developed a very sore foot since being here, they took me to the regular radiation floor where they take normal x-rays.  Both times a transport shows up, worms me through various hallways and deposits me to said location.  There you sit.  And sit, and sit.  Finally, when they process you, you’ve got to sit again and wait for the transport, and wait, and wait.  Each department has it’s own logistics department. On Monday evening I could have gone up and back myself 10 times but had to sit there and just be content.  Guessing that is where meditation comes in, but when you are chocking on your own mucus,…well.


16 feb in 1b lead-lined

GV caught me resting on her 10 minute allotted visit today.  As I’m writing this it’s about 7:30 p.  In another two hours they take out the radiation.  I’m more anxious about them taking out the metal tubes.  They’ll do that tomorrow morning.

Being that they are wire and have formed loops with both ends at the base of the chin, they’ve already formed their shape.  Just don’t get how they cut one of the button ends off and pull the other through without some heavy yanking involved.  I just want to get out of this without having my mouth or throat scraped or cut up.  Already knowing what that is like as it takes weeks to heal.  But I can’t really worry about it either, but it is sitting right there front and center.  Regardless, my tongue is very swollen and will probably remain swollen for a week or so.  (think less)

And tomorrow, supposedly, they will take out the trachea tubes.  Not sure yet when this will be done or who does it — I’ve been asking and asking but have not been given definite answers yet.  Guess it’s all logistics.